Safety

There are a lot of bad situations out there

Natural Disasters - Typhoons, Earthquakes, Tsunami

Man-made Disasters - Wars, Fires

Crimes - Murders, Assaults and Rapes, Thefts

Accidents

Major Health Problems

Etc etc..

ALHAMDULILLAH we live in peace, safety, and health

May Allah The Almighty, The Protector, The Provider, The Sustenor, The Bestower bless us all..

Amin amin Ya Rabbil 'Alamin

School $$

We get school money every three months. Alhamdulillah. That helps pay some of our outstanding bills, as we have just started to get things in order now.

It is currently an equivalent to over one month of my salary.

That is as long as we continue to go to school and we continue to receive financial aid. So far so good.

We don't know how long they are going to last, but for now we are thankful.

ALHAMDULILLAH.

Cuddly

I have to say that yesterday was a good day despite having the Tuesday blues at work.

My husband was nice to me. We got to spend some time talking. Then he served me hot, yummy, wholesome dinner and verybody joined me for dinner again even when they had already eaten.

I washed the babies.. Amira was extra big girl today. She had no problems coordinating her breath while pouring water all over her head. Umar was happy the whole time.

I went to bed early.

In the middle of the night Amira cried. I was ready to feed her, but she just moved next to me and fell back to sleep. All she wanted was cuddling with me. And Dadda moved next to me while I had Umar wrapped in my arm. We slept tightly close together like that til the morning.

I sure woke up thankful to Allah for all the blessings.

Alhamdulillah

Growing Up FAST

I had to do a lot of things yesterday that by the time I sat down to eat my dinner I was holding back my tears. I miss my babies.

Then I grabbed sleeping Umar from his helpful big sister. While holding him, I used the computer. He slowly woke up and started to bang the laptop with his hands.

He is already copying us -- he is using the laptop now!

I let him continue doing it for awhile. He seemed to enjoy it too. I am proud of him.

I told my husband about it, and he told me another story:

Amira just learned to use the touch pad too.
Also, today she refused to sit in her high chair. So Dadda let her sit on the big chair. She did and ate there, like the big kids do.

He said
They are growing up too fast.
And I don't like that.

It's beautiful to my ears in a few ways. While I truly understand why he does not like it, I also believe that our job as parents is to let the kids learn to take care of themselves.

My babies are smart. May Allah guide us always.

ALHAMDULILLAH.

Gifts

One of the best moments to me is when I hold my babies - when I am breastfeeding them, when I am cuddling with them, or when I am just having them on my lap.

Children are indeed gifts from Allah. I am aware of that and very grateful for that. I have been wanting to have my own babies for many years. I waited 32 years to have Amira. And Umar was a very pleasant surprise.

ALHAMDULILLAH. Shukran ya Allah.

I hope I am always a grateful and thankful servant to Allah.

Now I know when Apak said "You love ALL of your children the same. When you have your own kids you'll know."

I also understand now why Mak said "If possible you want your children to always be with you. You don't want them to be apart from you."

I love my babies so much I don't know how to describe it.

Your children is your life - both your hidup and your nyawa. Parents risk their lives to save their children's. Parents cannot bear the loss of their children.. I guess that's why

Narrated Anas:

The Prophet said, “A Muslim whose three children die before the age of puberty will be granted Paradise by Allah due to his mercy for them.” {Volume 2, Book 23, Number 340 : Sahih Bukhari}

My husband said "When my (baby) daughter died, part of me died too."

And old makcik said "I have had my parents passed away, my husband passed away. But they are not the same as having my (adult) child passed away."

That's why sometimes I feel like hoping that I would die before my children do, after I have done a good job taking care of them and raising them to be good and strong Muslims, inshaAllah.

Ya Allah, grant me the wisdom and the strength to do my duty as their mother.

Amira

Alhamdulillah, Amira is 2 years old now. She's a very smart girl.. speaking in full sentences. She uses both Malay and English words sometimes, for the same thing. She absorbs like a sponge. She knows solat, zikirs, asma-ul-husna (all her version). She remembers names of people. When I come home from work, she'll say

"Momma's Home.. Momma's Home!!!" (BIG SMILE)
"Assalamualaikum!" (HAPPY FACE)
"Boobba Time!!" (DANCING)
"One for Amira, one for Umar" (READY TO EAT)

What an active baby! She sings and dances. She runs and climbs. She whispers and screams. And the best part: she cleans up (when she feels like it).

Her latest accomplishment is being able to open and close doors. The first few times she got that, she was so proud of it.. Big smile and "Look!.. Yaaayyy..." It is indeed amazing.

She loves looking at pictures and watching family movies. She recognizes the people from my side of extended family. She watches nashids and kid's video on youtube too.. and loving them!

She loves her food and drinks -- rice, chicken, roti, peanut butter, jelly, hamburger, pizza, spaghetti, beef, sayur (vitamins!), ice-cream, cookies, and medicine!

She's very pretty too. Cute baby with chubby cheeks and beautifully curled brown hair.

I LOVE YOU BABY.

Alhamdulillah